I had a meeting in town yesterday morning. On the way back, the bus drove past the road where my husband lived for two years post his affair.
When I drove past it yesterday my heart sank to my feet and I felt a huge wrench of misery for us all. I thought about what it must have been like for him to have been removed from his family. I thought about the potency of loneliness. I thought about what steps you have to make on the long path to forgiveness and how it opens up other painful boxes to deal with along the way…..
When he lived there, in exile I was so angry and bitter and hurt that I couldn’t begin to empathise with his situation. I didn’t have enough space left in my heart to worry about how he was. I was too worried about my children and our broken lives and how I was going to cope. He did not understand this at all. He was shocked that I didn’t want to see it or visit him there.
Sad. Sad. Sad.
He still lives without his children. The silence must be deafening.
30. January 2009
What a completely amazing invention. Is it legal? Several of you lovely people out there suggested that I set up Skype in order for my youngest son to talk to his mate in Australia. This has taken me a long time to sort out. I have to be aware of something for a long time [...]
Continue reading and leave comments...29. January 2009
I have just finished reading “The White Tiger” by Aravind Adiga, winner of last year’s Man Booker Prize. I thought it was brilliant. A funny, astute and moving insight into the world of new India presented through the eyes of an endearing but fatally flawed narrator. The story unfolds in a series of letters the [...]
Continue reading and leave comments...27. January 2009
Clearly it is me and my blogging support group against the rest of the world, regarding my son’s gainful employment as a modelling agency pimp. I have talked to a number of friends – all the males (young and old) without fail think it’s the best job in the world and whilst most of the [...]
Continue reading and leave comments...27. January 2009
Photo taken in Chinatown on Sunday. Gung Hei Fat Choy or Happy Chinese New Year to you all. The year of the Ox. When I was growing up in Hong Kong, one of my dearest friends had a house on a tea plantation right next door to a Buddhist Monastery on Lantau island. Her house [...]
Continue reading and leave comments...26. January 2009
My brother was asked to exhibit some of his work this weekend at the International Make-up Artist Trade Show (IMAT). He works in prosthetics for TV and film. He borrowed my son to make the face cast he needed of a young adult male. He wanted to create a face that had been badly beaten [...]
Continue reading and leave comments...25. January 2009
Danny Boyle has done it again. After his previous success with “Trainspotting”, “28 Days Later” and “Sunshine” amongst others he has created a modern day Romeo and Juliet set in the slums of Mumbai. It is an epic love story – I can already see it as a “West Side Story” style musical (clearly so [...]
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30. January 2009
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