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“OUR CHILDREN ARE OUR MEDITATION”

Monday, October 17, 2011

Thank you to those of you who have emailed and texted.....you're right - too many reviews/current affair posts = trouble at mill. My life is a DISASTER at the moment on lots of different levels. I could list my Top 40 issues but perhaps my Top 3 will suffice for the moment:- 1. My cat has cystitis. Honestly. How ridiculous. When the vet asked if he had any reason to be stressed and if there had been any changes to the home recently - my daughter announced that she thought it was probably because my mother had been to stay. I am having to break open numerous capsules to add to his food every day. 2. I have split up with Builder Bloke. I can't tell you why. Suffice to say that I am deeply hurt and angry. 3. I didn't get into the list of finalists for the "Best British Travel Blogger" awards. Hardly surprising as I struggled to find a travel post that fitted into the dates required. But still. Disappointing. I do a weird thing when I'm miserable - totally shallow and childish (bit like when you're driving and decide not to put your foot on the brake unless absolutely necessary whilst slowing down to see if you are going to bump gently into the person in front) I decide in a "Dice Man-Esque" manner that the next song I hear on the radio will determine my immediate future and send a clear message. The last three times I've turned the radio on it's been the same song and I've been puzzled because I thought it was all about "You Have Been The Best Thing I Ever Had" and I kept thinking, "oh no, I've made a hideous mistake" but I've just found out that the lyrics in fact are "You Have Been The Best Thing I Never Had"......which is entirely different. I tried to be very grown up and sensible all weekend and made myself stay in on Saturday and sunday evening ON MY OWN. It's pathetic how rubbish I am at enjoying my own company..... SO. Whilst I"m on my scary, lets take fate out of my hands and put it into someone else's the next thing I have just done is check out my Buddhist offering for the day and honestly it couldn't be more relevant to the situation and it reminds me how lucky I am to have three gorgeous children who take priority over everything else:- 17th October "Our children are our meditation" and finally, now I'm on a roll and a little bit bored at home on my own I'm going to check my Chinese Fortune sticks "LIVE"....(off I go...........) Number 36 YOUR FORTUNE You've years of happiness in store, But friend, be warned in time, Hard luck is apt to visit you, If so, twill be through wine. Honestly - when my brothers read this they will laugh. I'm quite sure that most of my family's misfortune has been down to wine. So I need to pay attention - perhaps start drinking vodka instead. YOU SEE? It's a sign... (....shuffles off to put the wine back in the fridge immediately). ps: my other cat - the one who doesn't have cystitis is actually snoring LOUDLY on a chair behind me. Things can only get better....

SAD LOSER

Thursday, October 15, 2009

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I have become needy. It’s what I do if I don’t have somebody specific that I can care about and vice versa. Without a significant other I am pathetic. I don’t blame myself for that. It’s not great at my age to not have a partner. In fact it’s rubbish…and I’ll warn you now that [...]